from the darkest bottom of my heart

NATTEN - Hatet from marcus askelof on Vimeo.

I want to believe...

"They said the birds refused to sing and the thermometer fell suddenly as if God Himself had His breath stolen away. No one there dared speak aloud, as much in shame as in sorrow. They uncovered the bodies one by one. The eyes of the dead were closed as if waiting for permission to open them. Were they still dreaming of ice cream and monkey bars? Of birthday cake and no future but the afternoon? Or had their innocence been taken along with their lives buried in the cold earth so long ago? These fates seemed too cruel, even for God to allow. Or are the tragic young born again when the world's not looking? I want to believe so badly; in a truth beyond our own hidden and obscured from all but the most sensitive eyes...

In the endless procession of souls... in what cannot and will not be destroyed. I want to believe we are unaware of God's eternal recompense and sadness. That we cannot see His truth. That that which is born still lives and cannot be buried in the cold earth. But only waits to be born again at God's behest... where in ancient starlight we lay in repose."

Mulder, The X-Files

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"Fear is the memory of pain.

Addiction is the memory of

pleasure.

Freedom is beyond both."

Deepak Chopra

For those who run away..

You've got a mouthful of diamonds

And pocketful of secrets

I know you're never telling anyone

Because the patterns they control your mind

Those patterns take away my time

Hello, goodbye..

(Phantogram-Mouthful of Diamonds)

Kate Bush vs Lifelike - Electric Cloudbusting

Kate Bush vs Lifelike - Electric Cloudbusting

But every time it rains,
You're here in my head,
Like the sun coming out
Ooh, I just know that something good is going to happen.
And I don't know when,
But just saying it could even make it happen.

So, we're not getting married but I have to get rid of my pants?

Bir cumartesi akşamını evimde geçireyim dedim, karşıma manidar manidar filmler çıktı! Filmimizin adı "He's just not that into you" !!!. Türkçesi de "Erkekler ne söyler kadınlar ne anlar". İlk defa kel alaka bir film adı çevirisini beğendim açık olmak gerekirse. Sonra da filmin kadrosunda Jennifer Connoley, Jennifer Anniston, Ben Affleck, Scarlet Johansson, Bradley Cooper gibi en kallavisinden celebrity ler olunca n'oluyoruz dedim ve izlemekten kendimi alıkoyamadım. Malesef sonuna kadar dayanmam ihtimal dışı olacak kadar sıkıcı bir filmdi. Ama beni derin düşüncelere sevk ettiği zamanlar olmadı da değil hani.

Kısaca özetlemek gerekirse, filmden Scarlet Johansson'ın erkekler için baya bir seksi olduğunu, kadınların 5 seneden fazla süren ilişkilerde evlilik ihtimali görmüyorlarsa adamları terkettiklerini, evliliğin çok korkutucu bir şey olduğunu, dünyanın en güzel kadınıyla evli olsa bile erkeğin aldatmasının çok büyük bir ihtimal olduğunu, bir de sevgilim olsun diye kılı kırk yarıyorsan asla sevgili bulamayacağını öğrendim. Aslında şimdi yazınca baktım da fena şeyler de öğrenmemişim hani. Ya da şöyle söyleyeyim, ilişkiler ve evlilik üzerine kafamın çeşitli yerlerinde uçuşan genellemelerimi tekrar etmiş oldum sanırım. Her neyse, bu cumartesi akşamımın ne kadar sıkıcı olduğunu buraya kadarki okuduklarınızdan anlamışsınızdır sanırım. Filmden beni can evimden vuran birkaç da quote çakarım, ve cumartesi gecesi ateşimi diziport.com'la söndürmeye devam ederim.

"We are all programmed to believe that if a guy acts like a total jerk that means he likes you."

" I had this guy leave me a voicemail at work, so I called him at home, and then he emailed me to my BlackBerry, and so I texted to his cell, and now you just have to go around checking all these different portals just to get rejected by seven different technologies."

"So trust me when I say if a guy is treating you like he doesn't give a shit, he genuinely doesn't give a shit. No exceptions."

"So, we're not getting married but I have to get rid of my pants? "

"People who get married are not to be trusted. You know why? Because if you were legitimately happy, honestly you wouldn't feel the need to make a big show out of it. You wouldn't have to broadcast it. They do it because they're insecure and because they think that getting married is what they're supposed to be doing now. And so they're lying to themselves and they're lying to others. "

"I may dissect each little thing and put myself out there so much but at least that means that I still care. Oh! You've think you won because women are expendable to you. You may not get hurt or make an ass of yourself that way but you don't fall in love that way either. You have not won. You're alone. I may do a lot of stupid shit but I'm still a lot closer to love than you are." (buna beş yıldız verdim)

Azari & III - Manic / Hipsterliğin Gözü Kör Olsun!

Düşündüm de, hipsterden daha kötü bir şey varsa, o da zenci hipsterdir..Bu videoyu izleyince hak vereceksiniz bana,eminim. Black arkadaşlarımız gerek sporda, gerek sanatta gerek başka mecralarda olsun hepimizin kıskanacağı başarılara sahip.Fakat bu ne???Tamam şarkı çok iyi, takip ettiklerimizden... Ama bu görsellerle karşılaşmamış olsaydım keşke! Skinny jean giymiş, hip gözlükler takmış, skinny zenciler...Hay lanet olasıca bin kunduz diye yeni bir tabir geliştiriyorum burda izninizle..